Hello you guys!
I know I quit the blog for a while now, and I just posted a story last week (again, quoting that I’m really not coming out of hiatus). But, I can’t help it anymore. I am coming out of my break, having accomplished close to none of my hiatus-goals.
Seems depressing, doesn’t it?
Only, it’s not.
I have never loved myself or my life more than right now and I wanted to spread that very love over here on WordPress. Hell, I’d missed this!
I’d missed writing for no reason and actually resented my own book for streamlining me into boredom. I know it really is not boring, and I know that I actually have a piece of my heart etched into the plot, the characters, and the story line. But, I was sick and tired of forcing myself to write for my mind (which wanted me to focus only on my book). Now, I want to write for my heart and for the poor souls reading my ramblings.
Because, you know what? At the end of the day, all that matters is whether you spent that day following your heart or being prudent.
Can all of you swear that your entire day has been about the love you had for the activities you had carried out? I’m sure that most of you would frown and shuffle the topic away if I posed that above question.
That’s okay. I won’t be mad. I would react the same way.
As human beings, we are set in such discipline that survival, earning a livelihood, responsibilities, pride (yes, pride), and self-imposed rules all matter very much and influence even involuntary thoughts.
Have you really laughed out loud when you type ‘LOL’ into a text message? No? I didn’t think so. Then, why do you type it at all? It was force of habit and nothing else. You are hardwired into giving that reply.
Next time (when you actually have the breathing space for it; not when you are in an all-important hurry), question yourself. Live the moment as you see it happening and love the mystery of it all.
The human emotions.
The involuntary reactions.
The sudden gasp of horror at a slipping coffee mug.
Things like that.
There you will see the Heart in it. The Heart in everything you do and say and every way you choose to behave.
PS : Totally random, and slightly insane. Definitely involuntary. I love it!
PPS : This is the kind of act I’m talking about! 😀